Dear Diary: Unforgiveness and Stallions
- Kathy Brocks, Owner
- Jun 22, 2019
- 4 min read
Published 06/22/2019
Oh, how I love the assumed innocence of presumed privacy. You are the best at keeping secrets. You never willing divulge a syllable. You stay where I put you. Oh that you could make yourself too heavy to lift for hands other than mine. A lock and key justice has yet to prove efficient. It's more like a challenge for ever busy body who must know it all down to the flatulence in front of my boss. Who by way just smiled and excused himself. It's usually guys who toot or fart in front of him and keep talking. It's not that he had a problem with it. It's just he didn't think women would be okay farting in front of guys.
He shared with me once that his wife gets up an early to wash up so she smells good when he wakes. She doesn't put on make up cause that would be too obvious. He says he pretends not to notice her getting out of the bed and making the noise in the bathroom because he says, " I love the taste of her freshly washed skinned." When he talks about her its as if he and the memories of her are the only ones in the room. This guy is not romantic, he is better. He is loyal, faithful, loving and appreciative. Lord, you got another one of him standing upright in this earth?
He appreciates the little things she does. So sweet. He says that even when she is so tired and wakes up after him, he still wants her. He enjoys sinking into her. I thought maybe overshare. He caught the look in my eye. He says, No. I mean, whatever she is doing I am interested. I do enjoy sex with my wife immensely. It's just there is more to her than sex. We have been married for years and I am still finding new things to love about her. He says, " I love my wife and I like my wife. She is a pretty cool person. " Wow, so glad there is at least one guy in this office with his Johnson in check, I think to myself.
He says, we can afford a bunch of staff but she likes doing for me. We workout together. We pray together. We shower together sometimes. We laugh together. We cry together. We fight but do not let the sun go down on our anger. The rule is
regardless of fault, disagreements do not move into the next day. Also, she said, "if you put any part of you into another person, male or female, mind, heart or body, I will ask Jesus to cut you both." Then laughed. Man? I said. "Yes, man, now a days you just don't know the freaky stuff, I got to include everything. " I told her all of me is hers always, mind, body, soul, strength.
I tried not telling her about some of the women that come on to me. But she said she could feel when a whore approached. My wife said she would just start praying for God to move me around the temptations of the devil in Jesus' name. My wife refuses to get jealous cause it was not me, it was sin. I love that woman yo.
I interrupted. Ok, why are you sharing your wonderful life with me? I asked. My Boss said, "I am sharing a little of my joy in the hopes you will forgive those men you call dogs so you can welcome in a stallion, a real man of faith." Oh, you got someone in mind? I said. :No. But Jesus does", he replied. Your destiny is designed by God, who wants you to be blessed. Consider what I am saying and come to church Sunday. Let's see what Jesus got for you.
Just between me and you Dear Diary, I thought to myself no way is this possible twice. God blessed him, so God is going to bless me. But, I was curious. So, I went through the forgiveness process of repenting of all my sins and breaking generational curses and forgiving all those that caused me pain. So, that afternoon sounded like this,
Father, in the name of Jesus I repent of my sins. I break every generational curse upon my life from my mother's side and my father's side going back to the beginning of the curses and going forward a thousand generations closing every door to the fruits of sin in the name of Jesus ,whose blood redeemed me from the curse of sin. Father, in the name of Jesus I receive your forgiveness for those I have trespassed against or offended. Father, I forgive (just list the names of the people and things of offense) all those that hurt or injured me physically, mentally, socially, financially, emotionally and in every way and form. Father bring to my memory any unforgiveness in my heart so that I may give it to you. In the name of Jesus thank you Lord. I yield myself to you Father GOD, in the name of Jesus. Amen.
I was exhausted after all that praying and giving the unforgiveness to Jesus. You know that stuff leads to hate and bitterness. Unforgiveness is a straight non-stop ticket to Hell. That is a costly ticket everyone can do without.
Now, Diary, girl, you know I went to church on Sunday. I saw a lot of horses but only one stallion. Here's to letting Jesus do his destiny thing. Cheers.
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